Waves of Doubt

A Reflection on the Gospel for May 30th, 2021;
The Solemnity of the Most Holy Trinity

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Matthew
28.16-20

The eleven disciples went to Galilee, to the mountain to which Jesus had directed them. When they saw him, they worshipped him; but some doubted.

And Jesus came and said to them, “All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me. Go therefore and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, and teaching them to obey everything that I have commanded you.

“And remember, I am with you always, to the end of the age.”
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Pause. Pray.

And then read more...

In my past reflections, I have written about my experiences with anxiety and depression. And, along with anxiety and negative thoughts, often comes doubt. Doubt in myself, doubt in my decisions, and perhaps even doubt in God. 

Feelings of doubt can be discouraging and unsettling. They can be a major distraction, putting a dark cloud over all of the good things around you. They can isolate you, make you feel overwhelmed, and they may distance you from God. But, the unfortunate fact is that doubt is still extremely common. All of us have experienced periods of doubt in one way or another. And, though doubt is a shared experience for many, how one responds to it can make all of the difference. 

In this reading, Jesus is calling all who gathered to follow Him and share His good news — even those who doubted. 

I find that when I am in a sea of doubt, I have two options facing me. I can give in to the doubt and drown in those negative thoughts, which often results in a low mood and a pessimistic attitude. Or, I can offer up those doubts to the Lord, who wants nothing more than to take them away from me.  

I will admit, I am not always clever enough to notice when those waves of doubt begin to surround me, nor am I always humble enough to let the Lord take over those struggles. But, when I do let God ease my mind, I always feel most at peace and most myself.

Never be ashamed of your doubts (you’re only human!). Embrace them and let the Lord into them. Even if your doubts are about God, bring them to Him. Allow Him to guide you to your resolution. I pray that I may be open with the Lord about my doubts each day and be humble enough to surrender them to His will. Amen. 



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​Megan Noye
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